i don't like my edges rounded off.

I'm gonna turn
and walk away
you can wait
til I am far along
then run and come
and catch my arm
and say you'd die
if I were gone
I want to hear you
call my name
it's too easy
just to say it soft
I don't like my language
watered down
I don't like my edges
rounded off

I can't always wait
for your circumstance to improve
love is loose it
shifts each time you move
go ahead, put my back
against the wall
give it all up
or don't give it to me at all
you never know this could be
our last night
so step back
step back into the light
so I can see your sillouette
I'm not done looking yet

- ani difranco

Today, i gave Patrick an ultimatum. I am usually not one for ultimatums, but i can't do this anymore. If he doesn't spill the beans to Dr. Sarah tomorrow, this won't end well. And it could get really messy. i can't keep just keepin on. I hate to say it's getting too hard, but it honestly, is.

Tomorrow should be pivotal. and if it isn't, then we aren't either.

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And God help you if you are Phoenix.

and you dare to rise up from the ash.

a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy

while you (i am) just flying past..